I’ve spent the last 7 years being motivated to improve my life because of the reaction it would get, mainly from sex workers and partially from the other people around me.
These are shit sources of motivation. I could take two steps toward my goals then regress completely and then repeat that process in order to get the same positive reaction from the people around me endlessly.
Sex workers really only care that I have money when I see them, if I made no progress or very little at all it wouldn’t make a difference.
Needless to say I didn’t make any progress in those 7 years.
I need to be accountable to myself if real change is going to ever happen.